Part of my reason for starting this blog was my need to practice being vulnerable and letting the world see the good and bad, as I see it in myself. To be sure, my writing is definitely censored to some extent, but I’m trying to lay myself open because I hope to grow from it, and I hope to inspire others to be themselves.
A great deal of my life has been about being whoever or whatever the proverbial “you” wants me to be. I’ve been chasing the “shoulds”. It has left me empty, and it’s frankly lonely in a fortress. So, I want to try something different. It may not be the answer…maybe writing about my life on the Internet is a little weird, but I’m willing to give it a try. I know I’ll learn something from it, and I’m no longer afraid of the experiences of my life. I’ve managed to survive and often thrive despite adverse events and chilling consequences.
Another person that has inspired me to open myself up is Brene Brown. She is a Shame Researcher. What a job! Her video on The Power of Vulnerability is profound. I have really found, through practice, that vulnerability is strength. And, my being vulnerable and real allows others to be strong and courageous as well. And, to be honest, relationships are just so much more fun when people are getting real with each other. Why would I want to play with someone behind a mask? I know you have demons and shortcomings and fears just like I do. Let’s not dance around it. We only go around once in this life. Do you really want to miss being truly known? I don’t. I’m jumping in. If you think I’m nuts, you may be right. Who cares?