A friend of mine texted me and suggested I write a blog about the song Dream Weaver. I looked up the lyrics, and it just sounded like somebody that wanted to go to sleep and forget the day’s drama. So, I thought there might be some cultural interpretation that I was missing. I looked it up on Wikipedia, and, sure enough, there was. When this song was written, it was as a result of a spiritual teaching from a yoga philosophy. It really was written about dreaming while sleeping and escaping the world for the night. But, through the years, it has taken on a meaning of “love at first sight” or an incredible infatuation. Several movies have used this song in the soundtrack at the moment the main character sees the love of his life.
The word that was referenced on Wikipedia was “escapism”. I heard another country song today that reminded me of escapism. It’s from a song called Merry Go’Round by Kacy Musgraves.
Mama’s hooked on Mary Kay
Brother’s hooked on Mary Jane
And Daddy’s hooked on Mary two doors down.
Isn’t that the way it is? It’s so hard to be satisfied with being ordinary. It’s so difficult to look at what is present today in my life. It may be great, it may be not so great, but there’s always something greener on the other side. The past always looks simpler. The future always looks brighter. But, the present is….well….just ordinary. It’s waking up in the morning and seeing another wrinkle on my face. Its looking in the mirror and worrying that spot is a skin cancer and wondering what’s going to happen then. It’s taking the dog for a walk and knowing when I get back I have to drive to the office and sit in a cubicle and pretend to know what I’m doing on something I’m pretending to care about so I can get money to live a life that I’m pretending to have. In the meantime, my distractions, my “escapism” looks and feel so much better than worrying about that stuff.
I write a lot about my recovery from my addictions, and I know that some people sit back and say, “Wow, sorry she went through that. Glad I don’t have an addiction.” But, meanwhile, they go to work at 7 AM and work ’til 8 PM so that they don’t have to deal with their nagging wife or the inner critic that tells them they are not good enough. Another one will be so glad they don’t use drugs or alcohol because of the self-inflicted damage, but she eats herself to obesity or starves herself to death to escape the feelings of inadequacy in her failing marriage or the feelings of fear from a life out of control and filled with self-hatred. Another one heads to the mall to buy, buy, buy to punish her workaholic husband for leaving her alone all the time and to ease her fear that she doesn’t deserve to have nice things….that she’s unlovable. Still another sits in judgment of all of them because their religion takes them to a place where they don’t have to deal with the life that they built that they don’t love and the affair that is buried in their heart but is eating their soul. It’s all escapism…..all of it….substance abuse, gluttony, self-hatred, acting out sexually in destructive ways, unbridled judgment of others…..the Bible calls them the seven deadly sins….
I need to escape my life and my feelings from time to time. I need to go to a cabin in the woods with my dog and just relax and enjoy nature. I need to laugh with friends and forget a bad day. But, I have to be careful when I cross a line, and only me and God know where that line is. It’s located at the point that I become addicted to escapism. It might be when I spend more money than I have because I want to ignore my limits. It might be when I’m playing so much that I don’t pay attention to the needs of my animals or my home. It may be when I neglect someone else’s feelings by saying something that makes me feel better but makes them feel worse. It also may be when I don’t take care of myself because it would be easier or feel better not to. They are all the same. And, the line is so easy to ignore.
I think that song Dream Weaver is a classic because the feeling is universal. We all want to escape at some level. There’s some choice we wish we hadn’t made. There’s some person in our life that we wish wasn’t there. There is a problem we can’t solve. There is an impending death that we can’t face….and it may be our own. There’s a line that we’re trying not to cross, but it’s so seductive. It just looks so much greener over there. If only I could get there for a minute….an hour….a lifetime…..it would be so much better.I’ve just closed my eyes again
Climbed aboard the dream weaver train
Driver take away my worries of today
And leave tomorrow behind
Repeated several times…)
Dream Weaver lyrics © Universal Music Publishing Group, Warner/Chappell Music, Inc.