This morning my friend Nancy Allen Marchesseault made her transition to life on the other side. I know she is still with us, but I will miss her beautiful spirit here on earth.
I knew Nancy when we were kids because she was best friends with my sister, Susan. They were like frick and frack. I wasn’t that close to her then, but she started reading my blog after I started posting, and one day she was moved to comment about her life. I had written about the fact that I hate small talk, and I wanted to know what really moved people in life. She took that as a personal request, and she briefly wrote her life story in the comment log. I had no idea she had colon cancer, but it was one of the things she shared with me. The cancer changed her. It made her braver. And she and her husband had the courage to live their dream of moving to Tennessee.
I took it as divine providence and got over my fear, mostly. I thought, this is a really bold thing to do, where is this coming from? I looked at myself, really looked and saw that bold is what I was meant to do. I have been fearless at times in my life, I have been resolved at others, but I saw that I had always come through whatever adversity came. And I had become strong. No weak willed, mealy-mouthed, mamby pamby personality could survive chemo. It does take courage to fight cancer, it takes courage just to live at all. I didn’t know I had it. I didn’t know how strong I was. They say that if your dream doesn’t scare you, you’re not dreaming big enough.
~~ Nancy Allen Marchesseault
Over the next couple of years, Nancy and I wrote in a secret Facebook page about our fears and our struggles. She was always encouraging even though she had her own battles to face. She thought she had more time but the cancer came back quickly after they moved. But she still lived her life. It was inspiring to watch. I got the chance to spend a few days with her several times as I drove near their house on vacations. The last time I saw her was right before she got really sick in June. A couple of days opened up near the end of my North Carolina vacation, and I stopped by to hang out in their beautiful little house in Sequatchie TN.
I could tell on that last visit that she was tired. But she was as strong as always… as opinionated as always .. as compassionate as always. She was always concerned about me and my happiness and encouraged me to live out my dreams. I know that she will be with me from the other side cheering me on. I feel sure that I felt her brush past me this morning. I got the feeling that she was relieved that she was not sick any more and that she could fly. I wish her soul the peace that passes all understanding. And I have no doubt that she already has it.
I know her family and friends will miss her terribly because she was not only a courageous person but a loving and protective mother, sister and grandmother. Even as she was sick, she began making aprons and blouses for those she loved. Her passion and most beloved profession was cultivating plants, but the seeds of love that she sowed in the many gardens of her life are her legacy.
Nancy, my friend, Godspeed. You will be sorely missed, and your short stay was entirely our blessing. But I know you, and you will have everything up there under control shortly.
So, I’m going to end this book, I promise, but I just want to keep saying how much you need to rely on the truth right now and not doubt or fear. I’m glad you’re taking good care of yourself, I just hope you’re staying connected with all your peeps. I’ll be watching, but stay in touch when you can.
I love you