Whew!!! I’ve got a lot going on. I’ve got a quickly approaching deadline to take my Project Manager Professional certification test. I’m buried in the books as much as I can possibly stand it. Let’s face it, reading the PMBOK Guide is not the most salacious and entertaining read. But, it feels REALLY good to be learning something new and to be learning something that is so complex and eye-opening. I feel like a youngster again!
I’m three weeks off coffee, and after a very uncomfortable and scary blood sugar crisis three days ago, I’m completely off sugar again. To be honest, I don’t indulge nearly as much as I did in my younger days anyway, but it seems that my delicate blood sugar controls just don’t function properly. I take full responsibility for my reactive hypoglycemia. While I probably have some genes that contribute to the root cause, my tendency to binge on sugar, eat to numb out emotions and drink heavily in my youth have f*cked up my system. It’s time to pay the piper.
I’m also busy building a foundation for my half marathon training in October, and I’m continuing with my meditation and yoga practice. My new job is intense but I absolutely love it. It’s been a long time since I felt like I was in the right role in the right organization, and it’s a welcome feeling. I find myself laughing at work, my energy is back, I’m teaching yoga to my colleagues, and I’m excited about what I’m doing. In a word, it’s why I came back here, and I’m grateful for the opportunity.
So, this morning I’m chilled out with my Teeccino herbal coffee and my furbabies. I am so conditioned to artificial stimulants. It will take awhile for my body to provide its own natural energy kick, and it will never have the intensity of a hit of caffeine or sugar. But I’m up for this experiment. I always feel a bit like a failure as I try these things, get to feeling better and then fall off the wagon. But, as I look back over the years, I’ve been on a consistent trend toward the better. I can’t even imagine eating a drugstore bag of chocolates in one sitting anymore, and I used to do that with regularity. If I look at the long game, I’m winning. I just need to look at these fasts as a way to hit the accelerator for a stronger coast.
It’s Friday. I have a weekend of studying. I know Ashok will be glad when this is over, and we can get back to the business of living. I’m going to take two practice exams this weekend, so my brain should be toast by Sunday. I wanted to say hi and wish you all a happy weekend before I meditate and head to work. Have a great weekend, and find something new to learn! It’ll make you feel younger!